I flew home yesterday. It’s been 3 months since I was last here, and not a day has gone by where it hasn’t crossed my mind. It is only a fleeting visit though, mind you. 2 weeks of family, friends and the comforts of home, before I’m on the road once again. Home is always…
A broken soul
I have never broken a bone, but I broke my soul years ago, and I’ve been trying to help it heal for too long now.
I used to dream. There were things I wanted to do. Places I wanted to see. Now I have nothing. All I can think about is where it all went wrong. I’m mourning a future that I have not yet lost.
We live in a world where people hide the truth. We defraud those close to us, uploading postureo on Instagram. We tell white lies instead of plain truths. I’m fed up with it. I’m going to live my life differently.
I know everyone and no one. I am surrounded by people and yet alone.
The little things
I can’t enjoy the little things. I know I should, but I can’t. I see them as inconsequential. So much happens and so little changes. Each individual event or emotion is meaningless beyond the constraints of the present in which we find ourselves. The world keeps spinning whatever happens and so I find it difficult…
The first step
The first step in finding who we are is finding who we are not.
With the odds stacked against me
As a kid I loved sport. I used to play 24/7. When I was asked what I wanted to do in the future, my answer was always anything that is related to sport. Anything. By the time I turned 20 years old, I no longer played. Football, rugby, cricket, and many, many others had been…
Living without asking for help is one of the great stubbornnesses of life. And oh, how I can be stubborn some times.
Less is more
The more we have, the less we seem to value what we’ve got.
From light into darkness
Wherever I turn it all looks black, At what point was I cast from the beaten track? It’s like someone has been playing with the light switch. One day turning it up, so that my thoughts on the future look brighter than ever. But with no warning, suddenly turning the light off again. Leaving me…
Dreams vs reality
Last time we met up we talked about dreams vs reality. Do you remember? I asked which was better. You said reality. I disagreed. I said reality never lived up to our expectations. I joked that maybe my reality had been really awful. I joked that maybe my expectations were too high. Whatever the truth,…