I have had mixed feelings recently, thinking about the future, and what’s in store. There’s so much that I want to do, and yet it can be difficult to make a start doing it. I think of what life might be like a year from now, and I suffer a confliction of thoughts. Some days I’m excited; I’m free, and haven’t got anything holding me down to one place. But more often than not, thinking about the future makes me anxious and scared. I start to wonder, what if I’m in exactly in the same position one year from now, dreaming what my future life could be like, but still too anxious to settle down to anything permanent.
Too often we can forget to live in the present because we are too busy planning our future. Sometimes we need to plan our life by living it, accepting the twists and turns that come our way, using these opportunities to learn more about ourselves and the world we live in.
I don’t have a plan of where my life is heading. These past few years I’ve just been drifting and seeing what comes my way. I’ve been gifted some wonderful opportunities, and for these I shall forever be grateful; they have shaped me as a person, and I’m in a much better place because of them.
Isn’t it funny how we can feel such a contrast of emotions on the same subject? How the same thing that inspires excitement can also awaken fear?