I am a planner, a list-maker, and a worrier.
I hate the feeling of a missed opportunity and of wasted time. If there is a free hour in my day, I need to have something to do – even if it is only to relax and read my book. I need to feel prepared.
Consequently, when I’m stressed or anxious, say about ‘the future’ for example, I try to alleviate these worries by making a plan. But I find it difficult when things don’t turn out the way I’d thought they would. Something tells me that making a plan doesn’t always help, instead it just seems to postpone my anxiety.
I know that in life I can’t have it all on my own terms, but I find that hard to accept sometimes. I read somewhere recently that the best way to combat this is to try and increase your tolerance of uncertainty. To face our fears, but to start off small. We can’t tackle a problem if we are constantly running away from them.
We can make lists and plans but how often do they succeed? Doubt and worry are a constant in life, in both mine and yours. The search for certainty is nearly always futile; uncertainty is a part of life.